130 days

130 days and counting. UGH!!!!! I thought our referral would be here by now and we would be planning our trip. We are now 11 months into this adoption and no end in site. The hardest thing for me is no information. If our agency would just tell me where we are in the process, who has our information, then I would know something is happening. No information feels like nothing is happening.

Daffodils and Spring

Our daffodils are starting to open. I so love this time of year when everything is budding about to start flowering and the birds start singing more. The anticipation of spring.
I love to garden and the winter is so hard to get through because I can't be working in the garden. Each Feb. I go to the garden and patio show with my best friend. We make a day of it and search for that new plant we want to add to the garden. It gets me excited for the start of planting and all the beautiful flowers to come this year. I have plants that will flower from Feb-Oct planted so bring on the flowers! I'm ready to weed and plant. Woo Who bring on Spring!
We redid our whole yard last summer so I can't wait to see it in bloom this year and enjoy all our hard labor, or should I say Naing's hard labor.

Thanks

Thank you to everyone who helped me through the bad week. I'm doing better now. Naing and I have been very busy, painting, cleaning and nesting around the house. Naing's sister is coming for a short visit tomorrow. She lives in Germany and has been in Canada visiting his family. She is spending a few days with us before she flies back to Germany.
Tomorrow I am picking her up in Seattle and driving back home. It should be interesting since I have never met her, only spoken on the phone to her a couple of times.
She should come visit more often, our house is so clean and Naing did most of it!!
It should be fun, I love all his other siblings. I just hope it doesn't rain every day she is in Oregon.

Hard week

This last week was a hard one for me and other women whose blogs I follow. I don't know if it was the moon, sun or just kismet, but we were all feeling overwhelmed by the wait and the lack of information. Reading their posts was like they were reading my mind. I am having a very hard time with the wait and Naing isn't. That actually makes it harder for me, that he can except the wait without any questions and isn't at all emotional about this wait process.
I think what is the hardest is the fact that people think telling me it is only three months is comforting. What about the 7 months of adoption paperwork, 1 year of Naing's green card paperwork and the 4 years of fertility treatments. I haven't been waiting for just 3 months, i have been waiting for over 5 years to be a Mom.
If I could get an update, or timeline on when we will get our referrals that would be such a life line for me. I have actually started to question if this will happen for us, maybe we are not getting any referrals because adoption is changing in Ethiopia. When you don't get any information your mind starts to think up crazy scenarios.

email

Today we got the how are you doing with your wait email from our agency. How do they think we are doing???? They don't call families waiting for their referrals because they don't want to get your hopes up when you see that they called, so they email. We have been waiting for our referral for 3 months. Even though it feels like an eternity, I do know people that have been waiting longer. I'm running out of projects to we can afford to do on the house so these babies better come soon!!!!
Sunshine and Brandon came back home on Feb 14th. They have a wonderful video a friend shot at the airport of them with their twin boys. I can't tell you how many times I have watched that video and cried for happiness for them, but frustration for us as well.
I just wanted to send a one word email, WHEN????